The rebellions are taking their toll

Popping up in crooks and crannies and hitting like lightning

It’s peace then all of a sudden it’s a disaster
This kingdom has been in peace for far too long

I’m going to war

Destroying myself my enemies
Tearing down all my bad and rebuilding to be stronger

It’s always in the wake of darkness

That the light shines

From hardship, I become stronger

Casting out my own demons

And tuning in to my angels

Following the light 

Within

Waltzing through life and I’m leading

A bleakness follows as I walk

Ahead, desperately trying to avoid the wrath of the darkness

Yet I reach a pond

Where no creature dwells

In a dark cave, my footsteps echo into eternity

Downward I gaze into the tranquil waters

Back at me stares a muddled picture of colors,

Akin to my own face

This writing appears to be in a straight line

But crazily bounces from one edge to another

Scribble-scrabbling as I seek my meaning 

With grace, I breathe in

Calming the boggle to a standstill

Inhaling the essence around my body inside

Absorbing it to become at peace

As I exhale, my stress, my darkness fades away

My burden eases off

And replaced by pure air

I feel light like I’m floating on a cloud

A ripple of ease makes its way through a body

My mouth is hungry

Although I am not hungry 

It salivates at the mere thought

Of meat

It tingles with desire

And a single touch is all needed for it to lust for such things

My fear is that this mouth runs free

It overtakes me, the owner

And I am consumed by my own hunger

This poem’s only 7 minutes just because

And so this flower blooms

As I set out to first find myself

And become the best version of myself

Partly inspired by the universe

Something is pulling me

For far too long I’ve been unhappy with the life I’ve lived

The butterfly emerges

In my cocoon I’ve hid from myself

I hated my anxious myself

I’d attempt to rationalize what I did, as if it was all crimes

And now I set out

One foot in front of another I go

Have I emerged from the valley?

I leave the darkness behind me?

The fallen souls trying to grasp me and pull me back in.

Steadfast I walk forward

Behind me I leave the evil, and in front of me

I follow the beacon of light

Rather than hiding from the world

In the darkness

I step out and become one with it

This newfound energy vibrates within

Excitedly seeking an outlet-in action

Hard is the way to go

I won’t take it easy until I die

A fire’s been sparked

17 years old in November 2019

My journey starts now

Into nothingness I venture

Starting from my roots

Growing a great oak

Writing this indefinitely feels like a pain

An urge demands attention down there

Just carried out my carnal desires and within me

Only content and gluttony remain

Darkness threatens me at every corner

It’s there, waiting for me to let my guard down

And consume me, forcing me into a cage of unconsciousness

It basically killed me

All my energy expended and now I just feel like a tired boy